Thursday, March 29, 2012

Love is a Laserquest?

Do you still feel younger than you thought you would by now
Or darling have you started feeling old yet? 
Don't worry I'm sure that you're still breaking hearts 
With the efficiency that only youth can harness 
And do you still think love is a laserquest 
Or do you take it all more seriously? 
I've tried to ask you this in some daydreams that I've had 
But you're always busy being make believe 
And do you look into the mirror to remind yourself you're there  
Or has somebody's goodnight kisses got that covered? 
When I'm not being honest I pretend that you were just some lover 
Now I can't think of air without thinking of you 
I doubt that comes as a surprise 
And I can't think of anything to dream about 
I can't find anywhere to hide 
And when I'm hanging on by the rings around my eyes 
And I convince myself I need another 
For a minute it gets easier to pretend that you were just some lover 
When I'm pipe and slippers and rocking chair 
Singing dreadful songs about summer 
Well I've found a better method of pretending you were just some lover 
Well I've found a better method of pretending you were just some lover

This song was posted on my FB timeline by Ally a long time ago. But I just noticed it today.  :(

Monday, March 26, 2012

Kuala Lumpur Vintage Festival 2012


Aku OK

I hope I'll get used to this feeling soon. Yeah... Maybe I am not used to being single yet... Looking back, I have never really been single in my life. I mean, really really single as in not having any kind of relationship with any kind of guy. What I have now is only friendships, which I cherish and am so grateful for. I am not sure about how I really feel right now though. OK, yes I am feeling a bit lonely, but I really hope that what I am feeling at the moment is not some kind of a need of attention from some guy. That is the last thing I need right now. What I need now is to give myself some time and space. I am so not ready for any relationship right now. I WAS NOT ready. That was the reason why things didn't work out between me and Ally. Because I was impatient. I knew I was not ready, but I wanted it anyway. Degil kan. Nah sekarang rugi. Pfft. And I am still not ready now. It is however kind of sad to be reminded that I have nobody (of the opposite gender) to text with on a regular basis anymore now. Nobody's wondering about what I'm doing or whether I have eaten, bathed or whether my cat died or whatever. Nobody (of the opposite gender) cares anymore. But it will be very pathetic if I put my happiness on such silly things, right? I don't need to rely on those things to be happy. I am so much stronger than that. I have my friends who will always be there for me whenever I am feeling up or down. I am so grateful to have them in my life. Not forgetting, my sisters and also my mom. :) I really really really miss them. Losing Nasik (again) makes me appreciate other people in my life more. So it is not a bad thing. Having him in my life pun selama ni selalu buat aku sakit hati n otak jak pun. I am not saying that he had never made me happy or never done anything good to and for me. I was always happy when he was with me. The problem was, ONLY when he was with me. When we were not together, I was always suspicious, I never trusted him, I was always worried. And I was right all along. The suspicion and trust issues were NEVER baseless. There was a reason why I felt that way all this while. Huh. When am I ever going to stop talking about him? Entahlah. He was and maybe still is a major part of my life. He is the reason why I am where I am right now after all, right? If not because of what he had done, I wouldn't have quit Esmerk at the time I did, I wouldn't have gone back to KK at the time I did, I wouldn't have met Ally at the time I did, and maybe,  just maybe, my friendship with Faezah would've never developed to the level it's at right now. And if all that had never occurred at the time and place they should've had, I might have never found out that Nasik is still the man he was. If anyone could call him a man at all. Thank you Allah. I am so thankful. Syukur alhamdulillah, aku OK.

Friday, March 23, 2012

Are You Sappy Now?

And if you save yourself
You will make him happy
He'll keep you in a jar
And you'll think you're happy

He'll give you breathing holes
And you'll think you're happy
He'll cover you with grass
And you'll think you're happy now

You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room

Conclusion came to you, oh

And if you cut yourself
You will think you're happy
He'll keep you in a jar
Then you'll make him happy

He'll give you breathing holes
Then you'll think you're happy
He'll cover you with grass
Then you'll think you're happy now

You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
 Conclusion came to you, oh

You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room

Conclusion came to you, oh
And if you fool yourself
You will make him happy
He'll keep you in a jar
Then you'll think you're happy

He'll give you breathing holes
Then you will seem happy
You'll wallow in the shit
Then you'll think you're happy now

You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room

Conclusion came to you, oh

I've Been Timelined (and RockMelted)

Gahhhh my Facebook has been Timelined!!!! I hate itttttt........ I want the old layout back, but it seems like there is nothing I can do about it. Memang la ada banyak online tutorials on how to remove the Timeline, tapi one of my Facebook friends told me even if we manage to remove the Timeline, everybody else will still view our Facebook page as Timeline. So, macam teda guna jak tu remove. Ndapalah. Lagipun selepas beberapa hari guna Timeline, I don't think it is that bad anyway. N one more thing yg buat aku malas mo remove tu Timeline sebab kalau install tu remover, benda tu boleh access all data in my computer and the websites that I visit. I don't know, but it does sound suspicious. So nda jadi lah remove.  Memang I heard that Facebook IS migrating ALL accounts to Timeline gradually, but I suspect that mine had changed to Timeline automatically after installing RockMelt, which is a new web browser that makes social networking easier. I'm using it now and I love it! Using RockMelt, I can still chat with my Facebook friends, tweet, check email, etc while doing my work without actually signing in to the sites. Users can even choose their favourite theme for the home page. Here's a snapshot of mine. Cute ain't it? :D

The left sidebar shows the applications that I picked, while the right sidebar shows my Facebook buddies. :D I discovered this WOWser when I was looking at my blog stats. I saw that one person viewed my blog using RockMelt. I was curious so I googled it and walah! I think belum ramai lagi orang di Malaysia ni yg guna RockMelt, sebab everyone is asking me about it. Menyesal jugak pi send tu msg to everyone lol. Aku plak yg kena do the explanation now. Some of them even thought that I was the one who created this new browser. I WISH. Hahahahaha. Adakah boleh terfikir sampai camtue sekali. Kalau gitu, mesti la aku ni kaya-raya sudah. LOL. Some of them ada sudah yg installed and loving it too. :) Haha rasa2 jadi trendsetter la ko ni Nurul? Hahaha perasan. But it's nice to think of it that way, right? Lol. OK lah, I have to take a shower now and start working. Wishing myself a great weekend! :D

Read more about RockMelt here.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012


Yesterday was my bestie's birthday. Today, she's 32 years, 1 day and 20 hours old. Hehe. As I am currently kind of broke, I only belanja her dinner at Chop & Steak and also bought her a moist chocolate cake (with a cute Happy Birthday candle) :). Her birthday gift is coming soon lol. I should buy a camera lah one of these days... So it will be easy for me to take pictures and post them on my blog. I'll definitely buy one before her wedding day. Yeah of course I'll buy a camera before that day. Don't wanna miss taking the pictures myself. :D Her husband-to-be was her coursemate when we were studying in UPM. The funniest thing is, they never really talked to each other then. Now, they are happily engaged and will tie the knot on June 3, 2012. It all started with Facebook. Don't you think that it is really a curious thing? Relationships begin (and also end) because of Facebook nowadays. (speaking from first-hand experience here lol). It's weird, right? OK, aku bukan mo cakap pasal Facebook. Semua orang tau what happens on Facebook anyway. Haha. Well, I think the relationship that they have is a really innocent one. Why innocent? Well, let me break it down like this.

They dated once ---> A few weeks/months later  he went to her hometown for a meet-and-greet with her family ---> A few weeks/months later they (and me cough cough) went to take kursus kahwin together ---> A few weeks/months later they got engaged ---> To be married in June 2012. Voila! Who would have thought that these two really different people would someday fall in love and build a life together? Itulah yg dipanggil jodoh kan? :)  Well, yeah I hope that she really did find a "Mr Right" in him, and may their relationship lasts until the end. Wishes yg lagi panjang2, I'll save until their wedding day. :)
Happy Birthday Faezah.

lu dah 32 lu dah tuaaaa hahahahaha


I don't understand why everyone keeps asking me to stay at their place! Not that I don't appreciate it, I DO!! But it has reached the point of annoyingness you know!! STOP IT ALREADY!!! Even cousin/macik aku balik2 suruh aku pi rumah dorang pun aku malas mo pigi. It's not that I don't have a place of my own right??? What?? Am I homeless????? Argh!! Nanti kalau time aku betul2 homeless jangan kamu nda mau welcome aku plak kalau aku mo stay rumah kamu!!!! I think it has been going on since last year. The thing is, every time we plan an outing this friend of mine never make it pun. She always has some excuses, you know. The last time when we were supposed to hang out together, they all bailed out on me. Ada jak alasan. A few times pun sudah jadi gitu. Beriya-iya ajak keluar, tapi when the day arrives, tiba2 semua nda dapat keluar. Bila saturang nda dapat join, dia pun tiba2 nda jadi mo keluar. Tu yg aku kadang2 terasa juga tu. SMS nda jadi keluar haram, tiada. Tunggu orang tanya dulu baru kasitau nda jadi. Pastue yg lebih tambah annoying tu, bley plak buat satu remark macam aku plak yg susah mo dijumpa sudah sekarang. Aduh. It's not that I don't love this particular friend of mine. I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS. I appreciate them. But sometimes, ntahlah, memang annoying la jugak kan. Sometimes aku rasa dia macam jeles pun ada jugak. Urgh. Natau la. ANNOYED MODE ON.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Your So-Called Boyfriend is Still Crazy About Me. LOL.

Received a phone call from Nasik this morning at 11.27am. He asked me to hang out with him. I said I can't, because I had to go to Faezah's place. Faezah's friend invited her for lunch at her place and asked her to bring friends. The nasi dagang was sooooooo delicious. Empat kali aku tambah hahaha. OK OK, back to Nasik. Actually, I went for a jog yesterday morning with him at Taman Jaya. I know I shouldn't go out with him again, but whatever. I'll do whatever I want because I CAN!! People couldn't care less about my feelings so why should I care about theirs??? Urgh why am talking like this?? Ah tapi ndapalah. Yg penting aku tau aku memang nda akan ulangi sudah kesilapan besar aku tu. He was trying really hard to act charming. Tapi sekali bila aku tanya/cakap pasal tu perempuan, terus berubah mood dia. Terus jadi cam taik. Unwilling to talk n buat macam menyesal datang jumpa aku. Huh. Ntahla apa yg dalam kepala otak dia tu. Kunun mo kawin suda sama tu perempuan. Tapi kenapa masih mo jumpa2 aku. Ah daripada aku penat2 fikirkan apa yg ada dalam kepala otak dia, bagus aku fikir apa yg ada dalam kepala otak aku sendiri. What was I thinking? I could just say no, right? Kenapa aku masih mau jugak jumpa dia? Ah. Natau lah. I have no answer to that. But yg penting, there's no love for him anymore. Sudah2 la apa yg jadi. Ah gilak bah benda nie. Nasib jak aku nda jadi gilak kan. I mean like really gilak yg sampai masuk hospital mental or whatever. Or maybe sampai tahap membunuh/bunuh diri. Stupid Nasik. Nasib baik aku ni orang yg agak sensible jugak la. Kalau ndak memang sudah aku tikam dia tu kali. Urgh. Syukur that I am what I am.

When Will I See You Again?

Alah. Ally bilang dia maybe nda dapat keluar hari ni. Maybe boleh, but nda boleh lama. Hmmm I haven't said my apology yet. Ndapalah... Ada FB... or email... or just SMS... Okay...

Love is Something You Fall Into, But it Will Tear Us Apart

Reached home with a smile on my face. :) Today was FUN!!! I really had a great time walaupun penat. Gosh banyak jugak la stuff kami beli. Hehehe. My friend Ally bought four LP records, and one of them is for me. It's Chicago. My first LP ever! :D On top of that, he gave me two t-shirts, which include Barbara Kruger's "Love is Something You Fall Into". If I'm not mistaken, he bought the t-shirt for me as a birthday gift last year. Sadly, I can't fit into it as it's too small for me. It's S. Lol. Memang bes la today walaupun in the beginning he did make me angry (but not in front of him as I am apparently a good actress hahaha). Bah siapa juga nda marah kalau ko menunggu more than one hour??? Urgh... Kesian Faezah jadi "mangsa" kena mendengar segala "keluh-kesah" aku lololol. Tapi lagi kesian his friend la si Halip. He arrived at Amcorp Mall since 1pm lagi. Kami sampai sana dari Sogo kul 3.30 something. Nasib baik hari ni memang worth it la keluar. Macam lama sudah nda rasa gini :D What else he bought ah. Books... Like, A LOT of books. Aku pun getek beli jugak. Kami beli yg dalam satu kotak ada lima tu. RM49.90 so we shared la bayar. Memang cool gila la the books. The Beatles, The Rolling Stones, Jimi Hendrix. So cool man. And I also bought a pre-loved magazine with the great Morrissey on the cover for him (RM10 ONLY). :D After Amcorp Mall, we went to KLCC. Haha. Pusing2 jap di Kinokuniya then we hung out at the park. The tasik was closed due to maintenance/upgrading reason. Pfft. Took some pictures with the KLCC Twin Tower as background and around 10pm gitu dorang teman aku pi stesyen LRT KLCC. Ah nampaknya I am too tired to write much now. Description telampau simple ni padahal I intended to write "more" tonight. Need to sleep. Ally bilang "Bah bisuk la". Meaning, another outing with him n his friend(s) tomorrow. Haha, didn't expect that. I guess... We are friends again now. I already added him back on FB just now. I really regret saying what I said to him before. I better apologize to him face to face while he's still here. He's leaving on Monday. Um. Although memang at some point, he really did hurt me before, but I was not supposed to say what I did. Ntahlah. Maybe sebelum ni sebab kami jauh ba. Kalau berSMS, bukannya tau tone tu sebenarnya camana, reaksi muka n everything. Time depan mata, I don't feel and think that he's an asshole at all. Maybe I was the one who was being a jerk at that time. I was really really mean. He's kind, well-mannered and really thoughtful. I didn't feel awkward at all today (thanks to Halip for joining us lol. Mula2 Ally bilang Halip nda jadi ikut suda hee). Gosh. Is that hunger that I'm feeling right now in my stomach? I gotta be kidding myself. Ah. Jangan dilayan (lagipun teda suda makanan jugak kalau mau layan pun hahaha). OK la, I'm tired la. Nanti la sambung. Jum tidur. Sebelum tu, cam biasa, LAGU. :P zZZzzZZZzzZZZzZZZzz...

Saturday, March 17, 2012

What-Ever Suits-You! Vol. 3

Well, as I'm still up, better use the time to write about what I did last Saturday rather than scrolling up and down my OWN blog, right? Vain much Nurul? :P

OK, last Saturday, which was March 10, 2012, I went to What-Ever Suits-You! Vol. 3 gig at Doppel Kafe, Annexe Central Market. The gig, which was organized by Gerakan Grunge Bangkit, featured local acts including Instake, Flossy,  Subculture and the ala-ala Chris Cornell Isma Rudean. I had fun while I was there, mostly looking at the guys acted really really retarded. Well, memang gitu lah kalau pigi gig pun. It's not like I've never done that before. Tengok band jugak lah hehe. Kalau Zip Zieller, of course lah aku yg paling depan sana! :P Tapi perempuan selalu kalau mosh pun paling2 guyang2 kepala jak n sometimes lompat sikit2. Lol. I met my so-called adik, Sam Grunge, and my other FB friends who recognized me. Hehe. I can't say much about the gig in terms of the bands, because I'm not really familiar with most of them, although I've heard some of them. It was a good gig, yes no doubt about that.

Time gig tu aku jadi wallflower jak sebab aku segan. Hehe. Semua orang pun aku baru first time jumpa hahaha. It was the first time I have ever gone to a gig/concert ALONE. Macam kili ni masuk bayar tiket saturang. E bidak ohhhhh... Namau suda nieee hehehehe. Tapi nasib baik lah orang semua friendly n yg cam muka aku tu tegur2 jugak. :)  I was clad in my Nirvana Nevermind t-shirt. Hehehe what a show off! :P I got a free CD from Weirdlove as apparently I was one of the first 50 people to arrive at the gig (OK OK I'm not really sure actually lol) Hee... Haven't found the time to listen to it yet (bah padahal kalau mo dengar sekarang bulih jak pun hehehe). It's a single which consists of 2 songs entitled Rhythm of Passion and Wanna Be (King n' Queen). OK OK nanti aku dengar laaa... :P I missed their performance as they were the first band to perform. Aku sampai at around 7pm, which was 2 hours after the gig started. :P

Ada tshirt Placebo tu kunun2 mo beli (RM60 IS CHEAP OKAYYYYY) tapi size dia cam telampau besar pulakkk... Bila tanya abang Rokmart tu dia cakap size besar2 jak yg dorang jual at RM60 sebab mo kasi habis stock... Kalau size lain ada tapi harga asal la. RM88 ka kalau nda silap? Lebih kurang la. Dia suruh aku usha dorang punya FB page n kalau ada yg berkenan tu dia cakap boleh reserve without making any payment. Seberapa lama mo reserve pun boleh because their aim is to help people get their desired imported band t-shirts, which are always expensive and limited. Hee boleh la nanti aku tingu2. Harap2 ada The Strokes n The Smashing Pumpkins. :D
Ada banyak lagi gigs yg bakal take place April nanti (my birthday month hehehe). April is Not a Phool (Subang Avenue), Kami Mahukan Grunge, Jangan Tipu Kami!!! (Mentakab) n Grungezilla Tour 2012 (Penang). Ntahla aku dapat pegi ka ndak. Tengok la camana, insyaAllah... Hehehe. oOOOOoOOoOo iya kannnn lupa plak nieeee... Ada lagi satu gig yg lagi gempak punyaaaaaa......... Pasal apa GEMPAKKKK???? Sebab they are coming to KOTA KINABALU!!!! This September!!! :D aku dapat tau jak terus beli tiket flight. Hahahahaha. Nampaknya aku akan stay lama la nanti for raya yieeehaaaa :D :D :D Grunge Bah! Grunge! is going to feature bands from Semenanjung n also Sabah. :D I'll save the details for after the gig. :)

Friday, March 16, 2012

Feeling Restless

Ah. Finally found a new blog template that I really like to replace the earlier one that I used. Ntah apa jadi sama yg mula2 tu, tapi nasib baik la. This one is BETTER!!! :D Today I went out to have lunch with my dearest friend cum colleague, Siti at Kenny Rogers, Amcorp Mall and we stayed there to do our work. Before leaving the mall, I bought a book entitled "Die a Little" by Megan Abbot (for ONLY RM9.90!!!) as well as two movie DVDs, Restless and This Must Be the Place. I haven't watched the latter yet.
Annabel & Enoch
Well, basically Restless is about a young boy, Enoch, who met Annabel, a young girl (who was dying of brain tumor) at a memorial service and they eventually fell in love. Enoch has a ghost friend named Hiroshi, a Japanese kamikaze pilot who died during the World War II. Enoch lost his parents in a terrible car accident and since then lived with his aunt. Annabel's death was for me rather unexpected as I was actually hoping that she would get better during the whole process of the movie watching. OK, I know I'm not so good at this, but from my own understanding, I think the movie is about accepting death as part of life. It is also about letting go of those who have died and that we must carry on with our lives. Yeah, I know it's easy for me to say as I have never experienced such loss yet. Putus cinta pun aku macam si taik apa lagi kalau...... Ah. Don't wanna go there. Alahai. Lapar tul oh perut. Menyesal ni nda beli makanan tadi. Urgh. Megi lagi la jawapannya lol. Hish shit jugak ni Umobile ni malar disconnect. Dua kali suda. Orang mo blogging pun susah!! Urgh. OK OK, I'll call it a night then! Happy??? *rolls eyes* humph. Mo masak megi pastue tidur lah. Bisuk kunun mo keluar sama Ally. Ntah la camana plan dorang aku pun nda pasti. Ah lapar!!! OK sebelum tu, lagu dulu! LOL.

Hari ni Jumaat, besok Sabtu, can I spend time With You?

BTW, here's The Subways' latest song, "Kiss Kiss Bang Bang"

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Ramona Binti.........?

For a long time I was in love
Not only in love, I was obsessed
With a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn't work out, I'm covered in shells

And all I wanted was the simple things

A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife

I'm so ashamed, I've been so mean

I don't know how it got to this point
I always was the one with all the love
You came along, I'm hunting you down

Like a sick domestic abuser looking for a fight

And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

If we met tomorrow for the very first time

Would it start all over again?
Would I try to make you mine?

I always thought I'd be a mom

Sometimes I wish for a mistake
The longer that I wait the more selfish that I get
You seem like you'd be a good dad

Now all those simple things are simply too complicated for my life

How'd I get so faithful to my freedom?
A selfish kind of life
When all I ever wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Maybe Maybe Maybe?

Nda jadi tingu The Devil Inside ni hari. Tadi jumpa Ally with his cousin n friend di luar Pavilion. Pastue jalan jap pi Sungei Wang Plaza then aku bawa dorang makan di mamak tempat aku slalu lepak sama si oto. Ally spend. Tejumpa family dia yg lain jgk. Ada bapa dia. Haha malu aku. Nasib baik nda makan sama2, if not, punya men awkward. Tu budak telupa bawa my stuff pastue tadi macam nda sempat mo pi ambik tu barang before aku balik so kunun Sabtu ni join dorang jalan lagi. Punya men penat. Rushing ba aku tadi. Kalau tau, bagus nda payah turun tadi. Hahaha jahatnya aku. Nda bah. Cam biasa, aku makan bihun sup daging peveret aku ngan teh o ais. Hehe. Lamanya nda makan. Sedappp.... Aku akui kalau pedas lagi sedap tapi pa bulih buat aku nda tahan pedas jadi tadi langsung teda lada aku mintak. Tadi ya, memang kekok gila aku rasa. Buat2 cam besa jak kunun padahal. Sudala jalan telampau laju, dorang malar tetinggal di belakang. Or bukan aku yg jalan laju, dorang yg jalan telampau slow. Biasalah, mo tingu KL. Hehe. I dunno bila la mo tingu The Devil Inside tu ah. Next week la kali. Penat oh. Bisuk kerja lagi. Kan bes kalau bisuk weekend sudah. Urgh. Natau Sabtu ni dorang mo pi mana. Ikut jak la nanti. I suggested KLCC n Amcorp Mall. But Amcorp Mall too far plak for them kan. Haha. Apa ba sebenarnya aku mo tulis ni. Ah this is a diary, I don't expect any reader anyway. Ginilah cara aku tulis dalam diary pun. Just boring details about things that I do everyday. Haih.... Sometimes, I regret saying what I said to Ally before. Ntahlah kenapa ah. What really happened? Sampai aku namau kawan dia suda? Budu kan. Maybe because, ntah la I don't know. Like he said, maybe kami nda serasi. Yeah. Maybe. Maybe jugak kami belum sempat to really get to know each other? Maybe he was immature? Maybe I was immature? Maybe I AM immature? Maybe I was rushing things? Just like the way I walked just now. Rushed. And I got impatient with him then decided to bounce? Bounce back to Nasik. Pfft. What a stupid story. Yeah yeah I WAS stupid. Urgh. Tapi mo buat camana. This is my life, my story. Maybe some people are just meant to be with nobody. Yeah. Maybe. Too many maybes. Lol.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

I'll Never Forgive

The Woman in Black is a good movie, but if you are not into horror movies, then don't go watch it as you might end up feeling disappointed. Out of 5 stars, I'll give it 3 1/2. Although it IS good, tapi banyak jgk cliche. Nowadays, kalau crita hantu jak mesti macam nie. The characters will always think that everything will be over if they help the ghost solve its unfinished business, but it's always not the case. Movie ni pun sama la jugak. And another cliche that I found in this movie is of course, REVENGE. Kalau hantu jak, mesti balas dendam punya crita. Haha. But it's the type of movie I enjoy. Gothic horror. So I don't regret watching it in the cinema. In fact, I'm going to watch another horror movie tomorrow, The Devil Inside. Yg bikin aku seram sejuk pasal perempuan yg berpakaian serba hitam ni ialah ayat dia where she repeatedly said "I'll never forgive, I'll never forgive, I'll never forgive." Reminds me a lot of myself... Pfftt... Sudala tajuk pun The Woman in Black. Well, it's my favourite colour. I'm always wearing black t-shirts. And jangan lupa lagi satu benda, REVENGE. LOL. Well, this movie is based on a novel of the same title written by an English author, Susan Hill. Bagus aku pi cari tu buku nanti kan. Gothic horror IS my favourite genre of book too apparently. :-)

After watching the movie, I went to eat fettucine carbonara as dinner at the foodcourt, then I shopped for some groceries. Healthy groceries. Ahaha. I bought cherry tomatoes, red cabbage, wholesome bread, canned sardines and sandwich spread. Menyesal plak nda beli salad. Bukan apa, beli makanan2 ni sebab aku namau jadi cam hari ni. Langsung aku nda makan siang tadi. Bayangkan la kul 6.30 petang baru aku makan something. Hm. Aku harap syndrome2 kecewa ni nda berterusan lama la macam dulu. Ah. Malas aku mo ingat2 suda. Macam shit jak. Nanti nda habis2 aku memaki hamun jak. Bikin tambah dosa aku jak. Bluwergh. BTW, si oto tu bilang dia mo jumpa aku Khamis or Jumaat ni. Mo belanja aku makan kunun. And talk. Ah. I'm in only for the food. Call me anything I don't care. Sepanjang perjalanan aku pegi-balik KLCC tadi, aku asyik imagine mo do something bad jak sama Nasik. Like beating him with a baseball bat or hockey stick to death or pepper spraying his eyes and mouth or letak julap dalam minuman dia in a maximum amount. Urgh. I sooooooooooooooooooo wanna do that you know. Baru puas hati aku. Ah, sudala. Besok aku mesti step up in clearing the tickets. Sudala ada evaluation besok. Urgh. Apa2 pun, plan untuk tengok movie bisuk tetap akan berjalannnn... Hahahaha.

Malas Oh!

Urgh. Hari ni punya men pemalas aku. Malar blogger jak ni. Tickets baru berapa jak close. Hahaha. Santik suda blog aku. Baru la semangat mau blogging. Lol. Nanti petang aku pi tingu The Woman In Black di KLCC jak lah kul 6.30. Sebab si Ally bilang uncle dia marah. Kepala aku pening ni. Belum lagi mandi2. Makan pun belum. Urgh. Nasib hari ni nda sakit perut sudah. Besok MONTHLY EVALUATION with R**. Urgh. I've been working with B********** for how long ah. 7 bulan lebih la suda. 25 Mac nanti genap 8 bulan. Sejak nda payah tulis DARS, I know I have improved, if not much, a little la. Bulan 5 ni Ezura mo pindah, I also plan to move out and move in with Faezah. Tapi takut nanti Faezah nda selesa plak kan. Maybe I should look for a room di Pantai Dalam or somewhere yg dekat2 ngan LRT. Ataupun bagus aku move in jak with Faezah, and bulan 8 nanti balik raya tu, balik KK terus. Ntahlah. Banyak ni benda mo difikir n need to be decided. Hmmm.............

Monday, March 12, 2012


Just finished my dinner, which was bihun sup. Nda jadi tingu The Woman In Black malam ni. Sebab sakit perut. Damn. Ndapalah, bisuk la aku tingu. 6.30pm. The weirdest thing is, just when I was only a click away to pay for the movie ticket online this evening, I received an SMS frommmmmmmm....... (drum roll at the background), ALLY. He told me that he's in KL now. Apparently, it's a family vacation. Ingatkan he's here because of work. So I asked him if he wants to watch the movie with me, if not ndapala, then dia cakap dia baru jak reached the apartment n his father said tonight is family night. Bisuk, lusa, tulat dia bilang bawa dia jalan (he's going to be here for a week). 
Bla bla bla, hahaha why am I blogging about this?? Tiba2 jak ni. Sudala hari ni tiba2 blog lagi balik setelah sekian lama. And I originally wanted to blog about si Nasik n bini dia. Damn it. Padan muka tu perempuan suda aku block di FB. Kin panas ni!! Ko mo kawin sama dia ko kawin la bah!! Teda guna juga aku kasitau dia satu ratus juta keburukan Nasik pun sama jgk. Aduiiii bah ayat dia tu memang bikin panas ni!! "Aku lemah? Aku lembik? Aku naif? Bla bla bla bla bla, aku tak larat aku tak mampu sebab semua dalam kawalan dia yada yada yada." WTF man! Nanti bikin penat jak aku crita sama kau dgn penuh emosi semua tapi last2 ko end up mo kawin jgk sama jantan keparat tu kan??? Macam my roomie said la, ingat aku ni apa?? Host rancangan meluahkan perasaan di TV or majalah ka?? Ko tu sebenarnya BODOH. Menyampah aku. Pi mampus la ba kamu!!!! Kau ingat ni Mohd Haszuan Ahmad Nazri (in case you are reading this), aku nda akan maafkan kau dunia akhirat!! Sudah aku cakap hari tu ko nda akan hidup bahagia!! Kau akan dapat balasan dia nanti!! Apa kau sudah lupa pasal karma???? So sorry la, I'm not gonna wish you well, because I'm not fuckin Adele!! (wah, it ryhmes). Ya ya, aku tau aku nda sepatutnya cakap macam ni, aku sepatutnya doakan kebahagiaan dia sama tu perempuan, doakan kebaikan dorang, tapi sorry la man, hati aku ni sakit k. Ntahlah bila baru hilang betul2 sakit hati aku ni. Ya memang I did say that I don't care anymore (meaning I won't be affected pasal benda ni suda), tapi that will only be possible if nobody pokes me about it!!! Ah sudala. Lagipun my-recently-gotten-married-roomie nda berenti becerita dari tadi n I couldn't focus on writing. Berapa jam suda nda siap2 padahal tulis baru sikit. zZzZZzzZZZZzzzZzzz

Blogging in between ticket clearing

Sekarang rasa macam menyesal plak stop blogging. My life for the past 11 months was not recorded anywhere!! I didn't even write about it in my diary anymore. Since what happened between me and Ally. He was the reason I started blogging, but I stopped since I lost interest in the puppy-love-kind-of-thing-relationship. The saddest thing is, we stopped being friends too. Uh... Sigh. Benda paling bodoh aku pernah buat in my life so far was getting back with Nasik. Shit. I knew I was making the biggest, stupidest, dumbest mistake, tapi I don't know why I carried on with him. Shit tu lelaki. Tinggal dua hari lagi mo jumpa mama bapa aku, aku dapat tau dari tu perempuan that they WERE and now ARE still together. Dua2 pun cakap dorang bukan boleh pakai. Ceh. Kawin jak la ba kamu. TAPI NDA PAYAH LA BAGITAU AKU BAH BABI!!!! TAU KA HATI AKU PUN PANDAI SAKIT JUGAKKKKKKK??????? SIAL BUANG DUIT N MASA AKU JAK SELAMA NI!!!!! But in the end, I have no one else left to blame. It WAS my own fault. Ndapalah. Human beings are bound to make mistakes in life. And from mistakes, we learn, right? I do hope I learned my lesson well. And I pray to Allah that I will never repeat this kind of stupid mistake again. Gosh. Speaking of which, I forgot Zohor prayer....... :-( Camana nie...........? It's 6.18pm now.......... Astaghfirullahala'zim............... May Allah forgive my sins...................

To be continued.

My Monday Blues

Today, I found out that SHE had been reading my blog. Oh, no I did not find it out, she told me herself. OK, I know she found my stupid blog ni pun only by coincidence (because she was googling or mozilla firefoxing or internet exploring about her cheating, lying, two-timing, stupid boyfriend who was MY cheating, lying, two-timing, stupid boyfriend who apparently had asked her hand in marriage). WTF, just go marry him already OK!!! You two deserve each other!!! Thanks to you, I feel like blogging again, so CONGRATULATIONS!! OK lah. Buang masa jak cakap pasal ni, bagus aku buat kerja aku. Shite.

To be continued.