Saturday, April 18, 2015

Inner Conflicts

I have this tendency to say something that cuts people (maybe deeply, maybe not) and I'm sorry for being that way, I'm sorry that sometimes I don't laugh at your jokes, I'm sorry for being such a sensitive person that I can become insensitive. I don't like this situation. If I did or said something right, why do I feel like I'm the bad guy? I hate confrontations. I wouldn't say that to your face even if I wanted to. Maybe I am a hypocrite all along. Because I've never really felt that comfortable with being a so-called brutally honest person anyway. No, I'm not honest at all. If I really were an honest person I would've told that guy who is now happily married with his beautiful wife and is also a father to a cute baby boy that I was truly, deeply, madly in love with him in the first place. If I were really an honest person I would've admitted to myself that yes, it still hurts me to see that my ex is happy with his girlfriend and soon-to-be-wife, that it still affects me to see that they are having a better life than mine, that I'm still vulnerable to the old wound that he had caused me, and that I am honestly unhappy that I'm still single at the age of 30. I'm not an honest person and I am honestly sorry if I have made you think I am.

Friday, April 10, 2015

Song of the Day: Mating Season by Butterfingers

Getting jaded day by day
Digging deep, deep shores of reality
Up in the clouds hiding from the sun
There goes the king, wouldn't want to be one

When everything else fails
Turn the other side
Someday to know someday
Soon the tide will rise
Try listen to the light
You're standing on your shadow
When everything else fails

Let us sit and count the stars
As they melt on the palm of our hands
Rest the beast under the sunless sea
Rest in peace, I need a piece of my mind

When everything else fails
Burn up all your lies
When everything else fails
Learn about your life

When everything else fails
Turn the other side
Someday to know someday
Soon the tide will rise
Try listen to the light
Turn the other side
When everything else fails...

Monday, April 06, 2015

And Give Me Love Over Politik

For many reasons, I'm glad that I'm non-partisan. Discussing and/or reading about politics always leaves me with a heavy heart. Surprisingly not with anger or hatred, but with sadness. Ignorance is bliss they say, and under this particular circumstance, I agree.

Therefore, I choose to be ignorant.