She's Not Okay

My sister.... She's not okay...... :( I wish I was there to look after her. Maybe I should consider relocating to KL? Or to be exact, Kota Puteri, Kuala Selangor. Should I?

My Life For the Past 1 Week in Bullet Points

Since I have no time to write lengthy, wordy posts lately, here are what happened in my life for the past 1 week in bullet points:

• 1 June - My Aunt Inah got married. Yay!
• 2 June - Fatin returned to KL
• 3 June - I failed my JPJ test (the road part. Wait, what???). The retest will be on 17 June. Please please please wish me luck!
• 7 June - Farhan got engaged and after the event, which took place in Sabindo, I went back home with mama
• 8 June - Went out to KK for some errands: Went to Karamunsing to send my laptop to the place I bought it from to activate my Microsoft Office. Asked them to remove the pre-installed Avast antivirus since I installed the McAfee antivirus as this could cause the computer to crash or slow down but apparently they uninstalled BOTH. Luckily I found out that my computer already has a built-in antivirus, which is Windows Defender, and I don't need antivirus from other provider(s); Bought some personal necessities such as lotion, facial foam, facial moisturiser, deodorant, etc etc; Had lunch at Singapore Chicken Rice (SCR) - the food and drink were nice; Went to Centrepoint; Purchased a ticket to the movie Maleficent; Went to Coffee Bean for a drink while waiting for the movie time; While at Coffee Bean, I found out from Fatin's boyfriend that she fell down the stairs at my Aunt Tipah's house (she went there yesterday to take her stuff back to Unisel today. My Aunt Tipah and her kids are still at my granma's). I immediately called her and she said that she wasn't wounded but she did hit her head on the floor a little. Little or not I'm still worried okay!!! If I were there I would've taken her to see the doctor PRONTO! Because of the fall, she didn't go back to Unisel today and will only go back tomorrow with a taxi. I told her to rest and just skip her classes for a day or two if she doesn't feel well. I'm so worried about her :(; Went to watch Maleficent (I didn't really feel like going anymore after knowing about Fatin's fall but since I already bought the ticket, I went to watch it anyway, with a heavy heart :( ) The movie was good. I loved it; Returned home; Made payment for the owl tote bag I ordered from a former schoolmate

And yup, that's it!

P/S: Whoever and wherever you are that's reading this, I beg for your kindness to pray for my sister's health and wellness. Please please please pray that God will protect her from any serious illness and harm. May God bless you, may God bless us.

Good News vs Bad News Part II

Fatin. Yep. She is one of my biggest worries right now. Remember my post about her headaches the other day? My mom took her to the hospital the day I went back to KK last week. So the good news was, it's not cancer. Bad news was, it's brain virus infection. I don't know how serious her situation is or if it's contagious or not, because I wasn't with her every time my mom took her to the doctor (she had been to the hospital for this reason twice so far). I'm not even sure if she had been diagnosed or not. I did some reading, and I found that acute brain infection is not very contagious, whatever that means.

I quote, "Unlike the flu or the common cold, which can be transmitted by casual contact or by simply breathing the air in the same room with an infected person, most of the bacteria causing meningitis are not very contagious. It would take the exchange of respiratory and throat secretions, from coughing, sneezing, or kissing, to spread the bacteria. The only exception is meningococcal meningitis. Anyone in the same household, or who had a prolonged contact, or was in direct contact with a person's oral secretions would be considered at increased risk of contracting the infection. People who have been exposed in this manner should receive preventive antibiotics." Click here for the full article.

The doctor gave her many medicines, which I've never seen in my life before, but I don't think the doctor gave her any antibiotics. So... I shouldn't worry about it being contagious yet, right? But I'm still so worried about her. I don't even know what to do. She still screams in her sleep. In fact, she's screaming right now. I hope she took her medications before she went to bed. She's supposed to take them before bedtime. What I'm worried about the most is, who would look after her when she's in Unisel? She's going back to her uni next Monday. I'm so worried. Her stubbornness is making me worried even worse. Sometimes I'm not even sure if she took all her medicines as advised by the doctor. Ada jak alasan dia. Ubat tu limited la, kena jimat2 makan, ubat tahan sakit nda boleh campur2 dengan yg lain lah, ubat ni makan bila perlu jak lah apa lah. I wish I was with her during her check-ups. When I asked mom, she only said, "Ok, tiada apa2 jugak. Doktor suruh Fatin makan ubat jak." The thing is, IS SHE TAKING HER MEDICINES???? If she is, then why the hell is she screaming in pain right now??? And btw, she lost 6 KG! Now losing weight because you're on diet is a good thing, but losing weight abruptly like this is not an occasion we should be celebrating. I quote again, "Unexplained weight loss or losing weight without trying - particularly if it's significant or persistent - can be a symptom of an underlying medical disorder." Click here for the full article.

Dad said, if it is really what it is, we shouldn't be surprised if one day an operation is required. He added that it is going be to very risky. It could either make Fatin paralyzed or be the cause of her... death.... It gives me chills whenever I think about it. I don't even want to imagine it. :( Maybe I'm just being paranoid, maybe I'm just overreacting like I usually do, maybe I'm just catastrophizing this situation, but tell me, shouldn't I be worried? Wouldn't you?

Good News vs Bad News

Yesterday, I received both good and bad news.

The good news was, my aunt whom I call Ucu, had given birth to a baby girl, her 4th child, my new cousin. Syukur, alhamdulillah, both mommy and baby are safe and healthy. :)

The bad news was, my sister Fatin may have to see a brain specialist or a neurologist if she continues to have headaches. Severe headaches. I don't know how bad the condition of her headaches is, but, she told me that her roommates told her that she had been screaming in pain for the last several nights due to her headaches. Yep, they told her. Meaning, she wasn't even aware of the late night screaming she made. She was down with fever a couple of weeks ago (on her birthday) and was given medications accordingly by the doctor. She went to see the doctor again when she didn't seem to get better from the headaches. The doctor gave her migraine medications and advised her to come back if the headaches won't go away. Well, the headaches didn't go away. As advised, she went to see the doctor yesterday and the doctor gave her more powerful migraine medications. If she still keeps getting the headaches, the doctor said she would need to go to the hospital to see a neurologist. 

I'm so worried. So effing worried. She's coming home for her mid-semester break this early May. I will take her to see Dr Ganesh with mama. And perhaps buy her a new pair of spectacles or just upgrade the degree because that could be one of the reasons of her headache. Gosh, I really hope it's nothing serious. But serious or not, this matter should not be taken lightly. I hope that it is just a normal headache. Or migraine. Or whatever. As long as it's not what I'm trying to wash off my mind right now. :(