What-Ever Suits-You! Vol. 3

Well, as I'm still up, better use the time to write about what I did last Saturday rather than scrolling up and down my OWN blog, right? Vain much Nurul? :P OK, last Saturday, which was March 10, 2012, I went to What-Ever Suits-You! Vol. 3 gig at Doppel Kafe, Annexe Central Market. The gig, which was organized by Gerakan Grunge Bangkit, featured local acts including Instake, Flossy,  Subculture and the ala-ala Chris Cornell Isma Rudean. I had fun while I was there, mostly looking at the guys acted really really retarded. Well, memang gitu lah kalau pigi gig pun. It's not like I've never done that before. Tengok band jugak lah hehe. Kalau Zip Zieller, of course lah aku yg paling depan sana! :P Tapi perempuan selalu kalau mosh pun paling2 guyang2 kepala jak n sometimes lompat sikit2. Lol. I met my so-called adik, Sam Grunge, and my other FB friends who recognized me. Hehe. I can't say much about the gig in terms of the bands, because I'm not really familiar with most of them, although I've heard some of them. It was a good gig, yes no doubt about that.

 

Time gig tu aku jadi wallflower jak sebab aku segan. Hehe. Semua orang pun aku baru first time jumpa hahaha. It was the first time I have ever gone to a gig/concert ALONE. Macam kili ni masuk bayar tiket saturang. E bidak ohhhhh... Namau suda nieee hehehehe. Tapi nasib baik lah orang semua friendly n yg cam muka aku tu tegur2 jugak. :)  I was clad in my Nirvana Nevermind t-shirt. Hehehe what a show off! :P I got a free CD from Weirdlove as apparently I was one of the first 50 people to arrive at the gig (OK OK I'm not really sure actually lol) Hee... Haven't found the time to listen to it yet (bah padahal kalau mo dengar sekarang bulih jak pun hehehe). It's a single which consists of 2 songs entitled Rhythm of Passion and Wanna Be (King n' Queen). OK OK nanti aku dengar laaa... :P I missed their performance as they were the first band to perform. Aku sampai at around 7pm, which was 2 hours after the gig started. :P Ada tshirt Placebo tu kunun2 mo beli (RM60 IS CHEAP OKAYYYYY) tapi size dia cam telampau besar pulakkk... Bila tanya abang Rokmart tu dia cakap size besar2 jak yg dorang jual at RM60 sebab mo kasi habis stock... Kalau size lain ada tapi harga asal la. RM88 ka kalau nda silap? Lebih kurang la. Dia suruh aku usha dorang punya FB page n kalau ada yg berkenan tu dia cakap boleh reserve without making any payment. Seberapa lama mo reserve pun boleh because their aim is to help people get their desired imported band t-shirts, which are always expensive and limited. Hee boleh la nanti aku tingu2. Harap2 ada The Strokes n The Smashing Pumpkins. :D

Ada banyak lagi gigs yg bakal take place April nanti (my birthday month hehehe). April is Not a Phool (Subang Avenue), Kami Mahukan Grunge, Jangan Tipu Kami!!! (Mentakab) n Grungezilla Tour 2012 (Penang). Ntahla aku dapat pegi ka ndak. Tengok la camana, insyaAllah... Hehehe. oOOOOoOOoOo iya kannnn lupa plak nieeee... Ada lagi satu gig yg lagi gempak punyaaaaaa......... Pasal apa GEMPAKKKK???? Sebab they are coming to KOTA KINABALU!!!! This September!!! :D aku dapat tau jak terus beli tiket flight. Hahahahaha. Nampaknya aku akan stay lama la nanti for raya yieeehaaaa :D :D :D Grunge Bah! Grunge! is going to feature bands from Semenanjung n also Sabah. :D I'll save the details for after the gig. :)

Feeling Restless

Ah. Finally found a new blog template that I really like to replace the earlier one that I used. Ntah apa jadi sama yg mula2 tu, tapi nasib baik la. This one is BETTER!!! :D Today I went out to have lunch with my dearest friend cum colleague, Siti at Kenny Rogers, Amcorp Mall and we stayed there to do our work. Before leaving the mall, I bought a book entitled "Die a Little" by Megan Abbot (for ONLY RM9.90!!!) as well as two movie DVDs, Restless and This Must Be the Place. I haven't watched the latter yet. Well, basically Restless is about a young boy, Enoch, who met Annabel, a young girl (who was dying of brain tumor) at a memorial service and they eventually fell in love. Enoch has a ghost friend named Hiroshi, a Japanese kamikaze pilot who died during the World War II. Enoch lost his parents in a terrible car accident and since then lived with his aunt. Annabel's death was for me rather unexpected as I was actually hoping that she would get better during the whole process of the movie watching. OK, I know I'm not so good at this, but from my own understanding, I think the movie is about accepting death as part of life. It is also about letting go of those who have died and that we must carry on with our lives. Yeah, I know it's easy for me to say as I have never experienced such loss yet. Putus cinta pun aku macam si taik apa lagi kalau...... Ah. Don't wanna go there. Alahai. Lapar tul oh perut. Menyesal ni nda beli makanan tadi. Urgh. Megi lagi la jawapannya lol. Hish shit jugak ni Umobile ni malar disconnect. Dua kali suda. Orang mo blogging pun susah!! Urgh. OK OK, I'll call it a night then! Happy??? *rolls eyes* humph. Mo masak megi pastue tidur lah. Bisuk kunun mo keluar sama Ally. Ntah la camana plan dorang aku pun nda pasti. Ah lapar!!! OK sebelum tu, lagu dulu! LOL.

 

Annabel & Enoch

Hari ni Jumaat, besok Sabtu, can I spend time With You?

BTW, here's The Subways' latest song, "Kiss Kiss Bang Bang"

Ramona Binti.........?

For a long time I was in love
Not only in love, I was obsessed
With a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn't work out, I'm covered in shells

And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife

I'm so ashamed, I've been so mean
I don't know how it got to this point
I always was the one with all the love
You came along, I'm hunting you down

Like a sick domestic abuser looking for a fight
And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

If we met tomorrow for the very first time
Would it start all over again?
Would I try to make you mine?

I always thought I'd be a mom
Sometimes I wish for a mistake
The longer that I wait the more selfish that I get
You seem like you'd be a good dad

Now all those simple things are simply too complicated for my life
How'd I get so faithful to my freedom?
A selfish kind of life
When all I ever wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

Maybe Maybe Maybe?

Nda jadi tingu The Devil Inside ni hari. Tadi jumpa Ally with his cousin n friend di luar Pavilion. Pastue jalan jap pi Sungei Wang Plaza then aku bawa dorang makan di mamak tempat aku slalu lepak sama si oto. Ally spend. Tejumpa family dia yg lain jgk. Ada bapa dia. Haha malu aku. Nasib baik nda makan sama2, if not, punya men awkward. Tu budak telupa bawa my stuff pastue tadi macam nda sempat mo pi ambik tu barang before aku balik so kunun Sabtu ni join dorang jalan lagi. Punya men penat. Rushing ba aku tadi. Kalau tau, bagus nda payah turun tadi. Hahaha jahatnya aku. Nda bah. Cam biasa, aku makan bihun sup daging peveret aku ngan teh o ais. Hehe. Lamanya nda makan. Sedappp.... Aku akui kalau pedas lagi sedap tapi pa bulih buat aku nda tahan pedas jadi tadi langsung teda lada aku mintak.

Tadi ya, memang kekok gila aku rasa. Buat2 cam besa jak kunun padahal. Sudala jalan telampau laju, dorang malar tetinggal di belakang. Or bukan aku yg jalan laju, dorang yg jalan telampau slow. Biasalah, mo tingu KL. Hehe. I dunno bila la mo tingu The Devil Inside tu ah. Next week la kali. Penat oh. Bisuk kerja lagi. Kan bes kalau bisuk weekend sudah. Urgh. Natau Sabtu ni dorang mo pi mana. Ikut jak la nanti. I suggested KLCC n Amcorp Mall. But Amcorp Mall too far plak for them kan. Haha. Apa ba sebenarnya aku mo tulis ni. Ah this is a diary, I don't expect any reader anyway. Ginilah cara aku tulis dalam diary pun. Just boring details about things that I do everyday. Haih.... Sometimes, I regret saying what I said to Ally before. Ntahlah kenapa ah. What really happened? Sampai aku namau kawan dia suda? Budu kan. Maybe because, ntah la I don't know. Like he said, maybe kami nda serasi. Yeah. Maybe. Maybe jugak kami belum sempat to really get to know each other? Maybe he was immature? Maybe I was immature? Maybe I AM immature? Maybe I was rushing things? Just like the way I walked just now. Rushed. And I got impatient with him then decided to bounce? Bounce back to Nasik. Pfft. What a stupid story. Yeah yeah I WAS stupid. Urgh. Tapi mo buat camana. This is my life, my story. Maybe some people are just meant to be with nobody. Yeah. Maybe. Too many maybes. Lol.

 

I'll Never Forgive

The Woman in Black is a good movie, but if you are not into horror movies, then don't go watch it as you might end up feeling disappointed. Out of 5 stars, I'll give it 3 1/2. Although it IS good, tapi banyak jgk cliche. Nowadays, kalau crita hantu jak mesti macam nie. The characters will always think that everything will be over if they help the ghost solve its unfinished business, but it's always not the case. Movie ni pun sama la jugak. And another cliche that I found in this movie is of course, REVENGE. Kalau hantu jak, mesti balas dendam punya crita. Haha. But it's the type of movie I enjoy. Gothic horror. So I don't regret watching it in the cinema. In fact, I'm going to watch another horror movie tomorrow, The Devil Inside. Yg bikin aku seram sejuk pasal perempuan yg berpakaian serba hitam ni ialah ayat dia where she repeatedly said "I'll never forgive, I'll never forgive, I'll never forgive." Reminds me a lot of myself... Pfftt... Sudala tajuk pun The Woman in Black. Well, it's my favourite colour. I'm always wearing black t-shirts. And jangan lupa lagi satu benda, REVENGE. LOL. Well, this movie is based on a novel of the same title written by an English author, Susan Hill. Bagus aku pi cari tu buku nanti kan. Gothic horror IS my favourite genre of book too apparently. :-)

After watching the movie, I went to eat fettucine carbonara as dinner at the foodcourt, then I shopped for some groceries. Healthy groceries. Ahaha. I bought cherry tomatoes, red cabbage, wholesome bread, canned sardines and sandwich spread. Menyesal plak nda beli salad. Bukan apa, beli makanan2 ni sebab aku namau jadi cam hari ni. Langsung aku nda makan siang tadi. Bayangkan la kul 6.30 petang baru aku makan something. Hm. Aku harap syndrome2 kecewa ni nda berterusan lama la macam dulu. Ah. Malas aku mo ingat2 suda. Macam shit jak. Nanti nda habis2 aku memaki hamun jak. Bikin tambah dosa aku jak. Bluwergh. BTW, si oto tu bilang dia mo jumpa aku Khamis or Jumaat ni. Mo belanja aku makan kunun. And talk. Ah. I'm in only for the food. Call me anything I don't care. Sepanjang perjalanan aku pegi-balik KLCC tadi, aku asyik imagine mo do something bad jak sama Nasik. Like beating him with a baseball bat or hockey stick to death or pepper spraying his eyes and mouth or letak julap dalam minuman dia in a maximum amount. Urgh. I sooooooooooooooooooo wanna do that you know. Baru puas hati aku. Ah, sudala. Besok aku mesti step up in clearing the tickets. Sudala ada evaluation besok. Urgh. Apa2 pun, plan untuk tengok movie bisuk tetap akan berjalannnn... Hahahaha.

Malas Oh!

Urgh. Hari ni punya men pemalas aku. Malar tengok Blogger jak ni. Tickets baru berapa jak close. Hahaha. Santik suda blog aku. Baru la semangat mau blogging. Lol. Nanti petang aku pi tingu The Woman In Black di KLCC jak lah kul 6.30. Sebab si Ally bilang uncle dia marah. Kepala aku pening ni. Belum lagi mandi2. Makan pun belum. Urgh. Nasib hari ni nda sakit perut sudah. Besok MONTHLY EVALUATION with R**. Urgh. I've been working with B********** for how long ah. 7 bulan lebih la suda. 25 Mac nanti genap 8 bulan. Sejak nda payah tulis DARS, I know I have improved, if not much, a little la. Bulan 5 ni Ezura mo pindah, I also plan to move out and move in with Faezah. Tapi takut nanti Faezah nda selesa plak kan. Maybe I should look for a room di Pantai Dalam or somewhere yg dekat2 ngan LRT. Ataupun bagus aku move in jak with Faezah, and bulan 8 nanti balik raya tu, balik KK terus. Ntahlah. Banyak ni benda mo difikir n need to be decided. Hmmm.............

 

GUESS WHO'S IN KL?

Just finished my dinner, which was bihun sup. Nda jadi tingu The Woman In Black malam ni. Sebab sakit perut. Damn. Ndapalah, bisuk la aku tingu. 6.30pm. The weirdest thing is, just when I was only a click away to pay for the movie ticket online this evening, I received an SMS frommmmmmmm....... (drum roll at the background), ALLY. He told me that he's in KL now. Apparently, it's a family vacation. Ingatkan he's here because of work. So I asked him if he wants to watch the movie with me, if not ndapala, then dia cakap dia baru jak reached the apartment n his father said tonight is family night. Bisuk, lusa, tulat dia bilang bawa dia jalan (he's going to be here for a week).

Bla bla bla, hahaha why am I blogging about this?? Tiba2 jak ni. Sudala hari ni tiba2 blog lagi balik setelah sekian lama. And I originally wanted to blog about si Nasik n bini dia. Damn it. Padan muka tu perempuan suda aku block di FB. Kin panas ni!! Ko mo kawin sama dia ko kawin la bah!! Teda guna juga aku kasitau dia satu ratus juta keburukan Nasik pun sama jgk. Aduiiii bah ayat dia tu memang bikin panas ni!! "Aku lemah? Aku lembik? Aku naif? Bla bla bla bla bla, aku tak larat aku tak mampu sebab semua dalam kawalan dia yada yada yada." WTF man! Nanti bikin penat jak aku crita sama kau dgn penuh emosi semua tapi last2 ko end up mo kawin jgk sama jantan keparat tu kan??? Macam my roomie said la, ingat aku ni apa?? Host rancangan meluahkan perasaan di TV or majalah ka?? Ko tu sebenarnya BODOH. Menyampah aku. Pi mampus la ba kamu!!!! Kau ingat ni Mohd Haszuan Ahmad Nazri (in case you are reading this), aku nda akan maafkan kau dunia akhirat!! Sudah aku cakap hari tu ko nda akan hidup bahagia!! Kau akan dapat balasan dia nanti!! Apa kau sudah lupa pasal karma???? So sorry la, I'm not gonna wish you well, because I'm not fuckin Adele!! (wah, it ryhmes).

Ya ya, aku tau aku nda sepatutnya cakap macam ni, aku sepatutnya doakan kebahagiaan dia sama tu perempuan, doakan kebaikan dorang, tapi sorry la man, hati aku ni sakit k. Ntahlah bila baru hilang betul2 sakit hati aku ni. Ya memang I did say that I don't care anymore (meaning I won't be affected pasal benda ni suda), tapi that will only be possible if nobody pokes me about it!!! Ah sudala. Lagipun my-recently-gotten-married-roomie nda berenti becerita dari tadi n I couldn't focus on writing. Berapa jam suda nda siap2 padahal tulis baru sikit. zZzZZzzZZZZzzzZzzz

 

Blogging in between ticket clearing

Sekarang rasa macam menyesal plak stop blogging. My life for the past 11 months was not recorded anywhere!! I didn't even write about it in my diary anymore. Since what happened between me and Ally. He was the reason I started blogging, but I stopped since I lost interest in the puppy-love-kind-of-thing-relationship. The saddest thing is, we stopped being friends too. Uh... Sigh. Benda paling bodoh aku pernah buat in my life so far was getting back with Nasik. Shit. I knew I was making the biggest, stupidest, dumbest mistake, tapi I don't know why I carried on with him. Shit tu lelaki. Tinggal dua hari lagi mo jumpa mama bapa aku, aku dapat tau dari tu perempuan that they WERE and now ARE still together. Dua2 pun cakap dorang bukan boleh pakai. Ceh. Kawin jak la ba kamu. TAPI NDA PAYAH LA BAGITAU AKU BAH BABI!!!! TAU KA HATI AKU PUN PANDAI SAKIT JUGAKKKKKKK??????? SIAL BUANG DUIT N MASA AKU JAK SELAMA NI!!!!! But in the end, I have no one else left to blame. It WAS my own fault. Ndapalah. Human beings are bound to make mistakes in life. And from mistakes, we learn, right? I do hope I learned my lesson well. And I pray to Allah that I will never repeat this kind of stupid mistake again. Gosh. Speaking of which, I forgot Zohor prayer....... :-( Camana nie...........? It's 6.18pm now.......... Astaghfirullahala'zim............... May Allah forgive my sins...................
To be continued.

My Monday Blues

Today, I found out that SHE had been reading my blog. Oh, no I did not find it out, she told me herself. OK, I know she found my stupid blog ni pun only by coincidence (because she was googling or mozilla firefoxing or internet exploring about her cheating, lying, two-timing, stupid boyfriend who was MY cheating, lying, two-timing, stupid boyfriend who apparently had asked her hand in marriage). WTF, just go marry him already OK!!! You two deserve each other!!! Thanks to you, I feel like blogging again, so CONGRATULATIONS!! OK lah. Buang masa jak cakap pasal ni, bagus aku buat kerja aku. Shite.

To be continued.